I simply can't keep going. But today, it felt as though I was trying. It was a very long day that started at 4:30 a.m. We're nearly at midterm, and this is when I need to push in order to get everything graded. So when I left school today, I had two thoughts: the dogs weren't going to get a walk, and I was going to eat something I shouldn't. Actually, I was thinking about peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
However, somewhere, somehow, in the 7 or so blocks between work and home, I found the strength. Although the dogs didn't get long walks, they each got a walk. And I didn't gorge on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. I made some soy and ginger, chicken in the crock pot for tomorrow, and I did resort to one of the commercial diet, TV dinner things. In both instances, I compromised with myself. I know from experience, even though I feel like I want to just collapse in my chair, I will find more energy by walking, and although I think I'm really hungry, I'm actually just tired, and I won't find energy from bingeing. This time logic won out. It's always a struggle.
Compromise is good, but peanut butter is better! Good for you for being logical, and my new book should help when you're struggling!!
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