Update

Ken is after me to update my blog to explain how I feel about giving up Buddy. He's right. At the same time, I needed time to figure out how I felt.

I love Buddy and I miss him terribly, especially when I remember how he was when he was little as the picture above. And even now, he maintained some of those adorable qualities. But, now that he's gone, I realize how crazy my home had become. It revolved around keeping Buddy as much in control as possible. It was not a sanctuary for me. I frequently wanted to get away from home just so I could avoid dealing with the dogs if only for a short time.

Now, with just little Joey, it's quiet...maybe a little too quiet, but it's calm and life is easier again.

I frequently think about Buddy, but I try to keep the negative thoughts away. I think of him with a family where he is well-loved and controlled.

My dieting has to gone to hell. It'll be better next week when I'm busy with the writing workshop I attend. And then the following week, I'll be on vacation to northern Minnesota. And then, I start with school activities again. So, in a way, my summer is already winding down.